"If you don't create change, change will create you."

A simple comment: "Nothing stays the same in your family."
My family is full of chaos.
We are all definitely individuals.
I believe, though, it's a good thing that things are constantly
changing for us.
My family needs change.
There is a lot of growing up that is still needed,
and I guess the fact that nothing stays the same in my family just goes
to prove that we are open to change.
We all have chances to create change for our own health and happiness, and
most are chances we will take.
Obviously, sometimes it's difficult to handle the change
each other creates, but some how we do.
We are growing and learning how to make ourselves happy.
We are learning what direction in life is right for each of us as individuals.
I hope and believe with everything in me,
that in time we are going to be one big happy family again...
even if the distance keeps us physically separated.

"Change is the essence of life. Be willing
to surrender what you are for
what you could become."
- Author Unknown

"Be the change you wish to see in the world."
- Mahatma Gandhi

"Growth means change and change
involves risk, stepping
from the known the the unknown."
- Author Unknown

"Any change, even a change for the better,
is always accompanied by drawbacks and discomfort."
- Arnold Bennet

Concert last night, and a few thoughts...

I went to see the Dashboard Confessional concert last night,
and for the most part it was absolutely amazing!
I have decided more specifically what I love about concerts,
and it may be as cheesy as it gets, but it's true.
For me, anyway.
So I've always said that it's the feel of the music I like the best.
Now, more specifically...It's that I believe at concerts, with the music blaring,
I can feel my heart beating at what I believe
to be it's full potential.
People of Utah...the ones that are low enough to "boo" someone off stage,
I can honestly say that I despise you for it!
I hope at some point in your life it happens to you.
Maybe someone can just "boo" you for walking into a room.
Get over yourself and open your mind. People are NOT all the same.
Being different truly is a good thing. You're just too stuck in this nut shell to notice.
I think it's only in Utah that people cheer when a musician distinctively
drops the "F" bomb. It makes me laugh.
Thank you to the people that helped me get through the crowd last night
to get a picture. It is for people like you that I am willing to let others pass by me
without a fight.
Sometimes I wish I was one of the people at a concert that sings along extremely loud,
dances, and yells out to the musicians.
I sort of get a jealous feeling watching the people that are like that.
Lady Danville is a fun band to watch live. They remind me of Ben Folds.
Last night definitely wouldn't have been that great if I'd been with different people.

My life...
Hopefully with this upcoming move in the near future, I will actually be able to
live life for myself.
Maybe this feeling of not being good enough will go away.
I'm sick of feeling like I've been replaced.
I know what I want for my future, and I don't want that feeling,
or the feeling of not belonging anymore,
to stop me from making it happen.
I wish family drama would go away.
On a happier note, though, I so glad that I'm finally
getting my bills paid off!

Pray.

All I want right now is for life to be easier for my sister and my grandpa. I want them to be able to live happily, without pain and sickness. I want a miracle to happen for them; for the doctors to say there is nothing wrong anymore, and they are each free to live an entirely enjoyable life!

Pray for my sister and my grandpa, please?

As for now, I'm so grateful for how strong they've both been, along with my grandma and my mom. They are all so amazing and I can't imagine life without them!